Some Questions...

March 23, 2007 - 6:13am

Is the earth ancient and are you a young child, wandering her surface and running your small hands over the bumps and buckled plates of her wisdom? Or are you the old one, tired and cynical and wise, trying to recapture your innocence by walking barefoot and kissing the feet of a newborn morning?

Is goodness somewhere deep in your heart, laid in before the ages and waiting for the year of jubilee? Or is goodness a damsel locked in a distant tower, and you the prince charming who will redeem her at any price?

Are you dragging store-bought values behind you on a little string, smiling like a rube and looking for applause from the masses? Or do you listen to the mysterious voice that lives in the low places beneath your heart? Will you proclaim those words in public, or don't you have the courage?

Can God be jerked out of the heavens and thrown to the ground? Will you leer at her there and run your clumsy hands over her body? Will you brag to your friends later that you’ve known God? Or is God the ultimate seductress, unmoved by our adolescent advances, laughing at our wanton desire and sitting, legs crossed, just outside the orbit of our highest thoughts?

And if you do meet God on the way, how will you stand?

Will you stand frightened and cowed, mired in ancient dogma that binds your feet like sheets in a dream? Or will you laugh in the face of God, smirking and superior? Will you cleave instead to the cyborg beauty, the sacred science you have set apart and called your own?

Or perhaps, having tried all of these things, you will cast off your clothing and stand naked before the horizon, watching God flutter away like a butterfly, soaring beyond all words, swooping east and west to gather all mystics and cynics into the delight of her bosom.

Who are you?

Where are you?

What are you, and what do you intend?

Tell me, for you intrigue me, and I would know you like a father or a brother or a lover or a friend.

rlp

 

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 6:42am.

wow, rlp. are you proud of that? you should be. really stellar stuff. bravo!

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 7:13am.

Dear Pastor Gordon,

I enjoy your writing so much. Perhaps this will go in your next book.

Joan Taylor

Submitted by Simian Farmer on March 23, 2007 - 7:21am.

Introspection-inspiring questions, RLP. The whole piece reminded me of Oriah, Mountain Dreamer.
______
Simon

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 8:38am.

That mysterious voice is a big pain in the ass.

Submitted by Keith on March 23, 2007 - 11:32am.

Boy, I hate that moment when I click POST and think Did I log on?

Anyway. The thing that gets me about this entry is that there's not much there that I can't answer yes to. It's not so much this OR that. It's this sometimes, and that other times, and probably even more often both.

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 9:49am.

this is outright amazing... what a great exercise - what a wonderful way you have with words - I can nearly always stop here and after just a few minutes have a wide wonderful grin - thanks RLP.

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 11:23am.

Beautiful unsayableness.

Mags

http://magdalenesmusings.blogspot.com

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 11:27am.

This one struck a special nerve...

Are you dragging store-bought values behind you on a little string, smiling like a rube and looking for applause from the masses? Or do you listen to the mysterious voice that lives in the low places beneath your heart? Will you proclaim those words in public, or don't you have the courage?

1. I was, and not too long ago either. I try to pretend I wasn't, because I'm still a little ashamed of myself.
2. I'm learning to. And it scares the living hell out of me, because it's fraught with uncertainty, and the little rube with the string follows behind me and says: "They exchanged the truth of God for a lie! And so did you!" Smug little bastard. Sometimes I miss being so sure about everything.
3. No. I am afraid. What if I'm wrong, and am rejected by those who love me? Or worse: what if I'm wrong, and I lead others along in my error? And who can I tell about that smug, taunting voice? Because most of my Christian friends would label it "conviction": the warning voice of a loving God, calling me back to righteousness.

And I'm afraid they may be right.

I'm grateful, though, for your courage. It's killer.

-Amanda

Submitted by rlp on March 23, 2007 - 12:57pm.

Everything you've said I understand. There are things my spiritual heritage told me that I find it impossible to believe. Impossible to swallow. But I don't want to be kicked out of the club, right? And we both know that if the only voice I listen to is my own, I'm in trouble. That's arrogant.

And yet, my heart speaks to me on a few key issues and demands that I stand up for myself. It is scary, and if you are a minister (the paid kind) it can be very risky.

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 8:31pm.

You are not alone, Amanda. There are many others on the same journey. RLP is one of the favorite watering holes for us vagabonds. Given enough time and distance that little nagging voice does fade, but a stronger more powerful voice will be heard that will break our hearts over suffering and injustice rather than demand conformity and compromise. I wish you peace on the journey.

"Asking yourself these deeper questions opens up new ways of being in the world. It brings in a breath of fresh air. It makes life more joyful. The real trick to life is not to be in the know, but to be in the mystery."
Fred Alan Wolf

"Your only obligation in any lifetime is to be true to yourself.
Being true to anyone else or anything else is not only impossible, but the mark of a false messiah."
Richard Bach from Illusions, The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah

Submitted by hugovdm on March 24, 2007 - 6:22am.

Amen!

I have long struggled with the little nagging voice and the "forces of conformity and compromise", having been quite the "people pleaser" all my life. Only recently, helped greatly by reading some amazing books that made Jesus' teachings so much more accessible to me, I have come to a point where I have an overpowering voice that just cannot be held back, when it comes to "suffering and injustice", urging compassion, tolerance and love, and abhorring bigotry, hypocrisy, hate and judgementalness. (The hardest for me now is how to be tolerant of bigotry? Need I be tolerant?)

It is an incredible feeling, having a swelling passion for something that does make a difference, that you have complete courage of your convictions over. Incredibly liberating, it "sets you free". If "the truth shall set you free", and you don't feel that freedom, instead, you feel the oppression of your society's norms, folding often under the "peer pressure" of "religious people" (ironic?), does that really mean you have the "Truth"?

The Truth of compassion really does set you free. (In my experience, at least.) (Hmm, I was just reading RLP posts on homosexuality... does it show? ;)

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 1:07pm.

Wow.

Just... wow.

Submitted by spidey on March 23, 2007 - 1:07pm.

why does this computer keep logging me out???

Submitted by rlp on March 23, 2007 - 1:14pm.

spidey, does it do that in the middle of a session? Or does it not remember you when you come back?

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 1:33pm.

The art at my site is "Meditating" by Javier Lopez Barbosa, a Santa Fe artist whose work I happened upon while trolling the web a while back.

Here's his url:

http://www.javierlopezbarbosa.com/galleryC.html

Peace,

Mags

http://magdalenesmusings.blogspot.com

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 1:53pm.

There is a song in there RLP that needs puttin' to music!

About risk and courage - Some points in the road demand we put up or shut up. I've used more than my share of shut up tokens. Now gotta dish out the truth. *gulp*

Who I am has laid in wait far too long. Baby steps won't cut it much more.

Thanks for this. Helping me find my shoes.

Presbyterian Gal

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 2:08pm.

One more question; when were the Scriptures declared to be insufficient?

Submitted by rlp on March 23, 2007 - 2:51pm.

You wanna tell me what you mean? Cause I have no idea what you're talking about.

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 3:13pm.

I'm a frequent reader, never a commentor, a former Baptist minister and recovering cynic....really RLP this entry is very special.....it is Barbara Brown Taylor and Annie Dillardesque!

Very nice.

JLA

Submitted by goatmeal on March 23, 2007 - 3:15pm.

I think what I like best about this is that most of the either/or's aren't obviously right or wrong, they are (mostly) either both options for fallen nobility, or in some cases both options for desperate depravity.

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 23, 2007 - 3:28pm.

This was wonderful.

Submitted by Aimee on March 23, 2007 - 10:46pm.

i get the impression these eloquent series of questions and metaphors are meant for someone in particular- not for me. nevertheless, i too have been touched by them. after all, there is no human experience so unique that no other human has experienced it. you indeed do have a 'gift' for writing, Gordon.

Always in God's Grace~ ______ 
"Coolness might help in your negotiation with people through the world, maybe, but it is impossible to meet God with sunglasses on." ~ Bono

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 24, 2007 - 11:18pm.

Trying to keep the string and find the truth at the same time - I carry it in my mouth when my hands are full. With or without it, the world is unsatisfied. Is this what Jesus meant when he said not to be OF the world?

Thank you for these kinds of posts - I know they aren't meant just for me, but sometimes they give a little heretic like me the next breath I need to keep on climbing. And if I meet God on the way, how will I stand? Oh... however he asks me too, I suppose.

Submitted by Anonymous User on March 28, 2007 - 5:06pm.

Beautiful imagery.

D. Young

Submitted by John on March 29, 2007 - 3:53am.

This bothered me. Nothing you have ever written has bothered me before. I've always nodded along in agreement or skimmed over the things unrelated to me. I've never wanted to read the end of an essay as quickly as I did this one. It's a nerve I didn't know I had. I'm not sure quite what to say about it, other than I think I'm glad you wrote it.

Submitted by Anonymous User on April 5, 2007 - 9:03am.

This is truly beautiful. It made me feel that there is a place for my brand of faith.

Submitted by Anonymous User on April 6, 2007 - 6:15pm.

Wow. Thank you for this. I am a new blogger--- a pastor, anonymous at the moment. But your post was stunning. I love the imagery and your craft.

Orangeblossoms
allthings2allpeople.blogspot.com