i'm the author of Stumbling Toward Faith, a book published by zondervan in 2004. i'm a female, married, motherless, a mother. I am iced cappucino and almond-honey scones. I am gregorian chants. I am daffodils and irises and lilies and ivy. I am chocolate covered espresso beans, patchouli oil and raspberry bubble bath. I am dried flowers and vaulted ceilings, I am sandalwood incense and stubby white candles, I am a convertible with the top down in a thunder and lightning storm, I am Bach and Beethoven and the Unfinished Symphony. I am actively seeking. I am wanting to believe and yet afraid to. I am doubt and belief, I am found and am lost. I am done and undone, fragmented and whole.